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cherie-doll · 6 hours ago
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how do you think the cod men would react to you hiding an injury (from a mission) from them?
(annoyed i had a draft of this ready but my laptop decided to act up and i lost it, so i had to rewrite it again)
𓆩♡𓆪 Headcanon: Hiding An Injury From Them
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ઇଓ Price, Ghost, Soap, Gaz, Roach, Alejandro, Rudy, Phillip Graves, Makarov, Keegan, König, Horangi, Nikto
Price
it wasn't until after the mission that he noticed you clutching your side, your hand curved protectively over the wound that was surely getting worse by the minute or so he feared
he insisted on taking you to the medic right away, and as you were being examined he stayed right outside the room, he really wished you had told him, he was captain so he had to know if one of his had been injured
you were left to rest but the next day he came back, when you awoke he was there by your bedside, "why didn't you tell me?"
he just wants you to know that you need to trust him, he's more worried than anything on why you didn't come to him, did you not trust him?
Ghost
while you were seeking shelter he noticed the way you limped, you hadn't said anything but anyone who looked at you could see how terribly you tried to hide your pain
he sighs and trudges towards you, as if annoyed he has to do this, but he takes you aside and has you show him the injury, it wasn't as bad as he thought it was which is why he's a little relieved
as he bandages you up he's mostly silent, he wanted to scold you, to say something to get this feeling off his chest but when you gasp in pain when his fingers apply too much pressure he can't bring himself to be annoyed at you
you're left feeling the phantom touch of his fingers and how he gentled when he saw you wince in pain
Soap
you two were almost always assigned together or ended up finding one another and watching each other's back, so you were always in his subconscious; he just couldn't let anything happen to you
yet, in the blink of an eye it had happened, you brushed it off as being just fine, that it was only the debris and nothing more, nothing vital had been hit
but when you went back to base and he didn't see you around for a couple of days and found out you had been sent to recovery he rushed to find you, "you told me you were fine!", and he's upset you weren't honest when he asked
you two were a team...always working together so he definitely gets cross about the matter for a little while afterwards but not for long because he's still checking up and asking how you're holding up
Gaz
when you were a rookie you went to him for almost everything, he was the one you felt safest with and he had treated you with the most respect even if you were still learning and made mistakes
so he couldn't help but feel forgotten or sidelined when you didn't tell him about your injury, in fact, you weren't planning on telling anyone because you didn't want to make a 'big deal' out of it, you had been doing so well and you didn't want anyone to know you had messed up
yet, he found you taking painkillers and stuffing rags of blood down to the bottom of the trashcan, "how long have you been covering this?!" as he rushed to take care of it for you
he was stunned to find out you had been trying to take care of it yourself, still he remained patient as he somewhat understand why you did it
Roach
he went into panic thinking something worse would happen if you didn't tell someone right away, but you tried to tell him it wasn't that bad as a knife was sticking out of your leg
neither of you knew what to do other than informing someone, as help was on the way he shushed you and was 'calming' you down when you weren't even showing distress
he loves being helpful when he can so he stuck around to see if there was anything you needed whether that be emotional support or medicine; he was ready to help
Alejandro
he'd mutter a few curses before ordering some soldiers around to get an emergency kit, you try to move into a more comfortable position but he scolds you to hold it, you're making it worse
"this is serious you idiot, stuff like this can't be held off until later" and he might go off into a long rant but really he's trying to distract his mind as he cleans your wound and wraps it
he implements a new rule; everyone must report what they're doing or what has happened to them at all times during a mission, doesn't matter if they're taking a dump or if they got a papercut they gotta report that too
really he's just worried you'll get hurt and he won't be there in time to aid you
Rudy
he's all over you, anxious and troubled that one, you were injured and second, you were intentionally hiding it from him! he's more disappointed than anything
"i'm so sorry, you'll be fine.. i promise" he comforts as you're being patched up and treated, it probably hurt him more than you but you swear he's being a little over the top
back at base, there is not a day that goes by without him coming by to see you and bringing something for you, he doesn't even get mad at you for trying to hide the injury from him, he most likely forgot
Phillip Graves
"no, no- fuck, why?!" he focused in on solely you when a soldier told him about the injury you were trying to hide, but he cares too much, and you've seen how he is with his Shadows, of course he wouldn't let something like this slip by him
doesn't matter if you can walk yourself but you're not doing anything without assistance anymore until you're completely healed, it's sort of heartwarming in a way
he makes it very clear that this doesn't happen again, and you think he's talking about the injury but no he's referring to you hiding that you're hurt, he doesn't mind offering help he just doesn't want you suffering in silence
Makarov
he can't help but feel guilty, he should've known the risk for sending you out there and now the result is you needing emergency care, thankfully you weren't in too much pain
still, to him this is very serious, "this is serious! tell me what happened, who did it?", he's ready to go out there and find the bastard who had the audacity to do this, but you tell him it was kind of your own fault because everything had gone well it was actually due to your clumsiness that you had stumbled and hurt yourself on the way back
he doesn't know if that's another lie but since you seem better now he'll take it
Keegan
you've seen how much he yells during missions, so you know you're in for a reprimand the moment he figures out you're hurt, it's just a matter of time until he notices
strangely, when he does notice the blood through your clothes his eyes only widen as he points out the stained cloth and then gets to work silently as he uncovers the wound
you nervously try to tell him it's not that bad and he shouldn't be fussing over it but he just rolls his eyes, "not that bad you say? are you even looking at it?"
yeah it was pretty bad
König
he gets nervous the moment you show the slightest sign of discomfort so it's no strange that you'd hide an injury he's surely freak out over, you just don't want to cause him to lose focus
little do you know, the other soldiers are his eyes and ears as they report to him your injuries, he comes and says it's best you go back to base a little earlier, you protest thinking it's not fair that the others have sustained worse injuries yet they still have to keep going forward with the mission
but he just wants to prevent you from getting hurt worse and being so far away from a medic who could treat you end up with terrible health complications
Horangi
you and him tended to play around during missions, as if not taking them seriously, until it resulted in you getting hurt, he went serious after that even though to tried brushing it off
he could see you tense up a bit, your body sensitive to the throbbing pain that was begging to be taken care of, you needed rest and you weren't going to give it what it needed, he really wished he could be more caring and nurturing in this moment
he can only tell you to breathe slowly, to focus on the stars above you right now and hope you got to a medic soon, he wants you to realize you're not fine and that this could have been prevented, if only he had been more on guard
Nikto
he's seen people get their arm blown off, maybe even lose a leg and he barely bats an eye at it, so why is he constantly looking over at you who seems to be suppressing pain?
to him if blood isn't noticeable then it's no reason for alarm, and even then a little blood never hurt anyone, but your throbbing pain only gets stronger and he can see it in your eyes, the desperation and how you wish you had painkillers right now
while everyone else is asleep he orders you to tell him what's hurting and he tries his best to take care of it, he's built a high pain tolerance over the years but will feel disquieted when you appear worn out
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leighsartworks216 · 20 hours ago
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Calling Out
Zayne x gn!Reader
I do really love this one. I love when Zayne is staunchly trying to take care of us even when we're a bit stubborn about it
Warnings: fluff, a little silly, sleep deprivation, exhaustion, stress
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"How long have you been awake?"
"You don't want the answer to that question."
"I assume I wouldn't be jumping for joy if I heard it."
You sigh and rub at your tired eyes. All day, you've been hunched over your desk, clawing your hair out in frustration with your school work. On top of that, someone at work just quit, meaning you're one of the lucky few that gets to pick up the slack and take on more shifts until the company can bother to hire someone halfway decent. You're just grateful you have enough time in between the two to meet with Zayne for lunch.
"I was up all night," you admit. "One of my teachers thought it would be a great idea to give us an assignment that should take a week and have it due that same day."
"You didn't go to bed immediately after?"
"No."
"Is there a reason?"
"Couldn't sleep."
The waiter brings over a cup of coffee and a cup of green tea. You mutter a thanks and grab some sugar packets from the caddy on the table. You rip a few of them open at once with your teeth, lazily stir it in, and go to take a sip. Zayne's hand covers the top, and your mouth hits his fingers before he drags it down.
"You just put salt in your coffee." 
... No fucking way. You pick up the "sugar" packets to read the writing on the side. Sure enough, it's salt. You groan and slouch in your chair, head back and eyes closed. A touch melodramatic, perhaps, but Zayne thinks nothing of it as he places the cup of green tea in front of you.
"Drink this."
You look at it with a frown. "There's not enough caffeine in that."
He nods. "Precisely. You need to rest."
You sigh. "I can't, Zayne, I have work after this."
"Call out."
"I can't-"
"Doctor's orders. I'll give you a note."
"Zayne, I can't call in sick now! We're already understaffed and there's nobody who can cover for my shift on such short notice!"
He pushes the cup toward you more insistently. "Drink. You're going to work yourself into the ground if you keep on like this."
You snort humorlessly. "Hey, kettle."
He shoots you a disapproving look. "If you're not going to worry about your health, then allow me to. There is no situation that you can think up where your well-being comes after work."
You stare down into the green tea. You know he's right - of course he is. But there's a guilt that gnaws on your conscious every time you think of taking a break. For better or worse, that guilt has been the driving force behind your work. How long have you been detached from the "love of the game", from getting your degree to get the job you've always wanted? It no longer feels like a stepping stone to your future. It's a boulder in the way that you need to push up a mountain, inch by agonizing inch. It's only a matter of time before it comes rolling back on top of you; if you keep working through it, maybe you can avoid that happening.
And yet here you are. Your grasp on the boulder is slipping.
You take a small sip. It's herbal and warm. It doesn't have the kick the coffee does. You hope you can stay awake through lunch.
The stern look on his face relaxes slightly. He doesn't have to worry about you being rushed to the hospital in an ambulance because you passed out on the job. "How many sick days do you have saved up?"
You rub your eyes as you think. "I don't know. Enough for an emergency."
He flags down a passing waiter and hands them the ruined coffee. They take it away with a confused look. "Would you like me to make the call for you?" he asks, genuinely.
"Won't they be confused why my doctor is personally calling them from my phone? Would they even believe that?"
"Let me worry about that." He holds out his hand expectantly. You sigh. There’s no way you’re getting out of Zayne’s care now. Resigned, you pull it out of your pocket and pass it over.
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aishangotome · 1 day ago
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Azel Radwan: Chapter 5
Chapter 4 Normal Story
Thank you @shatcey for providing the video for this chapter!
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"The God is infatuated with a foreign girl" –– the rumor spread among the people faster than a fire along a fuse.
Emma: Living God… I can't go on anymore…
Azel: ..........
I wipe away the dripping sweat and step into the shade of a building to avoid the scorching sun.
Even so, my body is hot, and my limbs are already complaining of fatigue.
Azel looks down at me with a cold expression as I collapse on the spot.
Azel: What do you want me to do about it?
His mystical eyes are harsh, with no trace of the compassion he had when we first met.
I may have incurred the God's displeasure, but I no longer had the luxury of fearing divine punishment.
Emma: It's just as you suspect.
Azel: …Ah, so you're saying…
Azel kneels before me and lifts my chin with a forceful grip devoid of any tenderness.
Azel: You want me to be kind to you?
Emma: Please… I beg you…
(If this continues, I'll…)
–– Time rewinds a little.
Nadia: By order of the King, I, Nadia, have been assigned to attend to your needs, Lady Emma, starting today.
Aisha: I'm Aisha. We, the head maids of the harem, will serve you to the best of our abilities. Pleased to meet you.
Emma: Oh… Thank you for your concern. But I'm just a humble book merchant, so I don't need—
Nadia: Now, let's start with a bath. The Living God might visit you in your dreams.
Aisha: We must groom your hair beautifully, polish your skin thoroughly, and as for perfume… I wonder what the Living God prefers.
Nadia: We don't know, so let's use roses for now. Lady Emma seems to be from Rhodolite.
Aisha: That's a good idea! Let's do that.
Emma: You really don't have to go that far!
Emma: At least let me bathe alone— Please, have mercy…!
-
Izzet: I am Izzet, and I will be in charge of your protection from today forward, Lady Emma.
Izzet: I usually serve as a messenger, but this time I have officially received a royal order to eliminate any danger approaching you.
Emma: Oh… Thank you very much. However, I am just a humble book merchant, so I don't need a guard—
Izzet: Please reconsider. The Living God's favor is an honor for women all over the country.
Izzet: Even with the divine protection of the God, it's not possible to say for sure that there won't be any envy, resentment, jealousy, or anger…
Emma: … I understand. Thank you for your service. I look forward to working with you.
-
Enis: I apologize for summoning you so suddenly.
Enis: Are you having any trouble at the castle? If you tell me, I can help with most things.
Emma: Thank you for your kindness.
Emma: If you would be so kind as to listen to my wish…
Emma: Could you please treat me as just a humble book merchant, as before?
Enis: I cannot do that. You are the one and only woman who has received the Living God's favor.
Enis: For many years, Tanzanite has struggled with the lack of a woman who could capture the Living God's heart.
Enis: But finally, our long-held wish has come true, and the royal court is overflowing with joy.
Enis: It is the king's duty to increase the national power and entertain you… Please accept it.
The seriousness of being misunderstood as having the Living God's favor is something that sinks in with the passage of time.
-
Emma: Clavis, please stop.
Clavis: I haven't even said anything yet?
Emma: You have a mischievous grin on your face… You're enjoying this, aren't you?
Clavis: Haha, yes, I'm quite amused right now! Now, I'm sure you have a lot to talk about, right?
Clavis: This gentleman will listen to all your troubles.
Today, once again, we hold a secret feast with Clavis and Luke in a guest room of Tanzanite Castle.
From the moment I was summoned, I knew what the "main dish" of the feast would be.
Clavis: Luke, give Emma some alcohol.
Luke: No way I'm letting her drink. It's Tanzanite tea today.
Unlike Clavis, who can't stop grinning, Luke seems concerned for me, skillfully brewing the tea with practiced hands and offering it to me.
Emma: Thank you. This tea… I don't think I've ever seen it before.
Luke: I heard it's made by crushing several kinds of fruits. It's called "Zel Tea," and it seems to be very popular right now.
Emma: "Zel Tea"?
Luke: I heard it's taken from the Living God's first name.
(It's even become a name for tea!?)
Luke: They say it has all sorts of benefits, like curing illnesses, erasing worries, and making love come true.
Emma: …The people in this town really are devout.
Clavis: And you've been favored by that amazing God, haven't you?
I avert my gaze from Clavis, who can't stop smirking, and take a sip of the tea to calm myself down.
(Hmm, it's sweet and delicious.)
(It's a far cry from the image of the Living God… but I like this flavor.)
I take a breath, savoring the sweetness, and clear my mind of all distractions.
Emma: I have absolutely no recollection of such a thing, but it seems that's the case.
Clavis: Oh, you have no recollection…! So it was love at first sight for Prince Azel?
Luke: He has good taste.
Clavis: As expected of a God. But it is a bit surprising.
Clavis also takes a sip of the tea that Luke brewed for him and relaxes his expression as if satisfied with the taste.
Clavis: I thought he wasn't the least bit interested in romance that has no monetary value…
Emma: …Perhaps he just found a foreign woman to be a novelty.
Luke: No way. Look around Tanzanite. There are tourists from all over, men and women alike, right?
Clavis: Yes, a "foreign girl" isn't a rare existence for a God.
Clavis: Therefore, regardless of your origin, he must have found some value in you.
Clavis: Now, the question is, what exactly is that value… What do you think, Luke?
Luke: Me? Well…
Luke: Maybe it's a way to keep us in check?
Emma: Keep you in check?
(...The conversation suddenly took a disturbing turn.)
Luke pulls out honey from somewhere and puts it in his own cup, stirring it with a spoon.
Luke: You've probably noticed it too, haven't you? About the reason we came to Tanzanite.
Emma: Vaguely… It has something to do with the three-country alliance, right?
Luke: That's right. We're investigating the reason why Tanzanite formed the alliance, due to various circumstances.
Luke: So, I've been looking into it for the past few days, and it seems like the God holds the sovereignty when it comes to politics.
Luke: In other words, if there's some reason why they formed the alliance, the God is at the core of it.
Luke: And that God has set his sights on a woman who's close to us, right?
Luke: Tanzanite is outwardly welcoming us. But if they're wary of us behind the scenes—
Luke: There's a good chance they could take you hostage if something inconvenient happens.
(Hostage… I hadn't thought of that, but it's possible.)
(Even if the "infatuation" thing is just a coincidence…)
(There's no doubt that the Living God had some purpose in binding me with debt.)
(But, it doesn't make sense if that's "all" there is to it.)
Emma: Even if that's the case, Rhodolite and Tanzanite aren't on bad terms, are they?
Emma: Is there any reason to be wary of Prince Luke and Prince Clavis to the point of taking a hostage?
(If there's something they don't want the three-country alliance to know about, they might be wary.)
(But, if that's the case, they could have refused entry to Rhodolite.)
Luke, who had been serious until then, suddenly laughed and took a sip of his tea.
Luke: Well, that's true. I might be overthinking it.
Clavis: Luke, you…
On the contrary, Clavis becomes serious this time.
Luke: Wh-what…?
Clavis puts down his cup, approaches Luke, and places a hand on his shoulder.
Clavis: Big brother Clavis is touched right now. To think that Luke is seriously working…!
(I was kind of thinking that…!)
Luke: G-get off me, it's annoying!
Luke brushes Clavis's hand away and quickly retreats to the corner of the room.
He was surprisingly agile for someone who usually slacks off.
Clavis: I'm more surprised by your growth than the Living God situation.
Luke: …I should have slacked off if I knew I'd be praised this much.
Emma: Why? Serious Luke is cool too.
Luke: I'm not really working seriously. It's just…
Emma: …Just?
Luke: No… Anyway, I'm fine as long as that God doesn't harm you in any way.
(I wonder what he was about to say?)
Luke's attitude bothers me, but I miss the timing to press further.
Clavis: The hostage theory might have some merit, but I'd still like to believe in the theory that he's fallen for your personality, Emma.
Clavis: Because that's much more interesting, haha.
(That's the one thing that's not true.)
Clavis: Emma, there are various theories, but what matters is your will.
Clavis: Is Prince Azel's favor unwelcome, or are you not entirely opposed to it? Could you tell us for reference?
(Ah… So this was the main topic.)
I take another sip of tea, as if to hide my trembling hands from nervousness.
Emma: I don't think it's unwelcome.
Luke: Really?
Emma: Really, it's an honor to be liked by a God, isn't it? I'm happy… ahaha… haha…
(...I wonder if that was a bit too unconvincing.)
Emma: Anyway… there's nothing to worry about.
Emma: Thanks to the Living God, my treatment might improve, but it won't get worse—
Luke: It will, won't it?
My shoulders jump in surprise.
Luke: You're tired, aren't you?
(...I guess I can't hide that much.)
Clavis: Some people enjoy being pampered, while others are not used to it. You're clearly the latter.
Luke: If you don't like it, refuse it.
Emma: …I have been refusing, though.
Emma: It's a national celebration to be favored by the Living God.
Luke: That's not our problem.
Clavis: Haha, if push comes to shove, let's all three of us, you, Luke, and I, run away!
Clavis: Even though you're favored by the God, you're still just an ordinary person. There's no need for you to stay in the castle.
(...Oh, right. There's the option of escaping from the castle.)
(The owner won't be back for a while, and it might be a good idea to take refuge somewhere other than here.)
Luke: But, even if we run away, wouldn't they assign maids and guards to any inn we stay at?
Luke: I don't think the treatment would change much.
Clavis: Then let's find a love escape destination where we can live peacefully.
Clavis: It seems like it'll be a three-way, muddled love-hate drama between me, Luke, and Prince Azel.
Luke: Don't do anything unnecessary, okay?
(If that's the case, I know just the place.)
(The one and only place where maids, guards, and even the king can't easily enter.)
*back to present time*
Emma: Please… I beg you…
(If this continues, I don't think I can remain safe, both physically and mentally—...)
Emma: Please let me live here too!
Azel: Rejected. Goodbye.
(There was no room for negotiation…!)
Azel, still holding my chin as I kneel, pokes my cheek.
Azel: More importantly, I'm counting on you for the next errand.
Emma: Again!? I just went shopping!
(And thanks to that, my whole body is hot and I feel sluggish…)
Azel: Poor you. But you owe me money.
Azel: If you could pay it all off at once, you wouldn't have to run errands…
Azel: But you can't, can you?
(That smile… It's infuriating.)
Azel lets go of my hand and offers me a folded piece of paper.
I reluctantly accept it and check the contents. My head swims as I see a long list of items written in illegible handwriting.
Emma: Living God, are you aware? I'm not in a position to walk around town freely right now.
Emma: Whether I'm working as a book merchant or running errands in town…
Emma: I have about ten people following me, including guards and attendants.
Emma: Everyone stares at me, and tourists who mistake me for a celebrity call out to me…
Azel: That's not my concern.
Azel: Those attendants and guards cannot enter the temple without my permission.
(That's right… That's why this is the only place I can take refuge.)
Even though I pleaded with him after making a difficult decision, Azel doesn't seem to care.
Azel: I don't care if you're exhausted, so just go quickly.
Emma: …Then I guess there's no dinner for today.
Emma: I can't cook if I'm tired, so it's a shame.
Azel: Then how about cooking before you go to town? That solves everything, doesn't it?
Emma: …You evil God…
Azel: You're incorrigible, increasing your debt again with slander?
(He always has a retort…)
As I clench my fists tightly, Azel suddenly looks away.
It's not that he's averting his eyes from me, but rather that he seems to have noticed some presence.
(...Is someone coming?)
I can see a figure in the distance amidst the swirling sand.
As soon as the figure sees Azel, they kneel and bow their head.
Azel: It's rare for you to enter here, Izzet.
Izzet: The High Priest requests your presence, Lady Emma.
Emma: …The High Priest?
(If I remember correctly… He's an authority figure on par with the King and the Living God…)
There's only one reason why someone of such high standing in Tanzanite would summon me.
I gasp, and at almost the same time, Azel places his hand on my head.
Azel: If he has business with her, he should come here himself.
Azel: I'd like him to know his place.
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Chapter 6
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skyrim-forever · 2 years ago
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NSFW! Devour Me -Teldryn Sera x Serana Volkihar
@t00thpasteface it is done! I tried to emphasis Serena's vampire-ness so let me know if it comes through! Wish I made it more monster-fucking but alas, there's always next time. We did keep the Femdom overtones tho
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“So you’re here with the vampire?”
Teldryn finished his sujamma, placing the jar in front of him on the bar, before answering Geldis’s question. 
“I’m here with my current employer yes” 
Geldis’s eyes dart over to the sultry figure in the corner, Serana is laughing with some of the other patrons of the Retching Netch. In between conversations she briefly looks at him before making her eyes to Teldryn, her tongue swiping across her bottom lip. 
“Have you seen the way she looks at me?” Teldryn says.
“Like she wants to crack you open like a fine bottle of wine.”
“Ah, so you have noticed” He laughs at this, like becoming the prey of a bloodsucking monster is normal. His friend was always one for danger but even this was a bit much for him.  
“Don’t you worry my friend, I can handle myself.” Although originally he was afraid of his vampiric companion, to the point where he was considering learning to sleep with his eyes open, this fear had subsided into something else. Vampires were wretched creatures but the danger made her all the more enticing. She was plenty attractive as is, with silky dark hair and her dry sense of humour; but it was when the hunger took hold that really drove him crazy. Her red eyes wide, mouth gaping and growling -no something far more primal than growling- admitting from her. Watching her feast on rats, deer, the occasional traveller, left the dunmer both in fear and awe. 
By Azura, I wish that were me.
“Here she comes” The barkeep said, snapping Teldryn back to the present from his thoughts. Serana walk up to where they are at the bar. 
“Hello Geldis” she says, looking at Teldryn instead. 
“Greetings outlander, I suppose I have you to blame for taking my friend away”
Serana laughs, eyes never leaving her hired companion. 
“We’ll be on the island for a few weeks, going to go digging in a few dwemer ruins before heading back to Skyrim.”
“Ah dwemer ruins, forgive me if that doesn’t sound enchanting.”
“It’s a lovely challenge, although not much of a challenge for one of my talents” Teldryn says, entering the conversation. Though, with Serana’s eyes staring into his soul, he can’t help but feel Geldis is the outsider in this discussion. 
Geldis senses this too and adds “the rooms on the end are yours for the next two nights” before excusing himself. Teldryn nods at Geldis and turns his attention to Serana. 
“So boss, what’s the plan for the rest of the evening?”
  “Well the night is still young and the drinks are still flowing, I say we enjoy ourselves for the time being. The ruins will certainly be less than inviting.” 
“I’ll drink to that” The mercenary laughs, about to flag Geldis down again for another round. 
“Oh yes, I have something for you, a bit of a bonus for handling that bear attack outside of Windhelm.”
“Oh, do you now?” 
“Follow me” she says, making her way down the hallway to their rooms. Teldryn gets up from his seat, following close behind. 
Once inside he remarks “so what kind of bonus are we talking about here? You’ve already given me more than enough-”
Teldryn closes the door, turning back to look at her,  yet again she is staring at him. Teldryn notices her eyes are wide, her mouth agape -the hunger.
Serana closes the distance between them, all but pinning him against the door. 
“I’m hungry Teldryn.”
“Are you now?”
“I don’t think rats are going to suffice this time.” She moves her arms up to his neck, with one hand caressing his cheek, a finger trailing down his neck. She is taller than him, towering over him while the lights of the room illuminate her face. Serana is a vision, ancient and primordial, powerful. Teldryn felt his pants tighten and despite the fridge temperatures of her hand, he found himself becoming unbearably warm. 
“I know you’ve seen how I look at you, like I want to suck you dry, eat you alive”
Teldryn dawns a dark smile “Then devour me darling”.
Serana wastes no time sinking her fangs deep into his neck, the contact making him yelp out of a mix of pain and pleasure. She does not nip or suck the skin, but rather plunges into a large artery, quickly drawing blood. At her hunger being satisfied, she lets out a deep, guttural moan. At this sound Teldryn moans even louder. 
“Fuck”
Teldryn brings a hand to her head, holding her closer to his neck, lightly running his fingers through her hair as he deals with the intense sensation crossing through him. She is messy in her feeding, he feels blood begin to drip down his neck and under his armour before she growls and gestures for him to remove it. He does so without question, stripping it away until he’s bare from the waist up. She dives back in, this time leaving the open wound on his neck and licking the stray blood that’s begun to run down his clavicle. Upon returning to his neck proper, Serana sucks the sensitive skin around the wound, before closing it up with her spit. 
Teldryn looks up at her, eyes still wide and blood, his blood, dripping down her face. He grabs the front of her armour, pulling her lips into his. She meets his enthusiasm, running her tongue on his bottom lip to ask for entrance, which he grants more than willingly. Tasting his own blood is not something he ever expected to do but fuck if it didn’t make him feral. The burnt rust taste was rather pleasant and he felt pressure continuing to build in this cock, the organ desperate to be touched. As he lowers his hand to palm at himself through his far-too-tight pants, Serana breaks their kiss and replaces his hand with hers. Undoing the laces of his pants and freeing him, grasping around him firmly, she begins to move her hand up and down his shaft. 
“Fuck” Teldryn manages to say in between moans “maybe I shouldn’t be te one paying you.”
Serana chuckles darkly “No need for payment, just be good for me, you do that for me can’t you?”
All he does is moan obscenely, at this moment there’s nothing he wants more than to be good for her. A woman so dark and sublime, dangerous and strong, is currently jacking him off and he’ll do anything to keep it that way.  Her touch is electric and unlike anything he’s ever felt before. Teldryn was no stranger to lovers, but none had been as magnetic as her. He wondered now, drunk on her touch, intoxicated by the pleasure, if she feared the sun because she knew she was  far, far more radiant.  
It’s when she returns to his neck, the biting and moaning accompanying her touch, that he knows he’s at his end. 
“Can’t, can’t take much more”
Serana takes her lips off his neck for a brief second to utter “then come for me”. The filthiest moan leaves Teldryn’s lips as she pleasures him through his orgasm, her hand rasping tighter and he winds down from it. 
Breathing heavily, he mumbles “That, that was, you were-”
Serana kisses him to stop him mid-sentence. 
“Oh I’m not done with you yet.”
Now it is Teldryn’s eyes that are wide, before he narrows them and follows her as she leads him to the bed. Shoving him onto it, he takes a moment to remove the remainder of his clothing, tossing it to the side. It is not long before her’s joins his on the floor, her boots slumped against the end table. She stands over him, pale skin nearly glowing as he takes in her entirely. Serana climbs on top of him, towering over him once again and gives his cock a few strokes, not needing much to get him fully erect again. 
“What do you want?” she asks.
“You, oh fuck, you” he answers. 
Serana laughs again, sinking into him and moaning loudly as she is filled by him.She is cold but its not unpleasant, her cool body meeting his warmth creates a new sensation that leaves him lightheaded. Teldryn has abandoned any of the already little dignity he has left to cry out “By Azura, fuck”
The vampire begins to ride him, head thrown back and breasts moving in time with her movements. Teldryn reaches up to grasp them, pulling, gently, at her nipple. Upon hearing her low moan, he moves up closer to her, enough to put it in his mouth. His tongue laps at the soft skin surrounding it, before he plunges his teeth into her. This causes a growl to come from Serana and in a brief moment of clarity Teldryn thinks so she likes to be bitten back. He continues his ministrations on her breasts, biting and fondling as she grinds harder on him. Not wanting to be a selfish lover, he moves his hands down to her centre, giving her clit a few experimental touches in order to find out what she likes. Circling her clit with two fingers causes her to tense around him, obtaining a deep, feral sound from both of them. 
“Keep moving just like that, oh you're so good aren’t you”
This woman is going to take his soul right out of his body, her praise just spurs him on, continuing the same motion only harder. Serana’s legs begin to shake and her orgasm washes over her. Now it’s her turn for a filthy moan and Teldryn is sure Geldis and the other patrons have heard but right now he doesn’t care. He just made this vision of a woman finish and he is going to drink in the memory of her coming undone on top of him. 
“Oh so strong, you’re so strong and you make me feel so good” Teldryn hums happily at this, Serana comes down from her high, climbing off him to sit on the edge of the bed, grasping his cock. 
“Can you come for me again, you look so delicious when you do” 
Teldryn swallows, before answering “Yeah I can, I can for you, oh” she rides him, studying how his face contorts in pleasure as she moves up and down his shaft, the dark purple veins pulsating. He closes his eyes to just focus on the feeling, he doesn’t want it to end just yet and he fears if he looks at her too long that’ll be it. He feels her thumb on his slit, before a long, wet, lick forces his eyes open. Teldryn sees her licking along the underside of his cock, her eyes staring at him both asking for his pleasure and letting him know she’s in charge. He feels spent and Serana can tell by the way his legs have begun to shake. She sits back up, once again looking down on him. 
“Come”
And he does, thrusting into her hand and crying out a string of obscenities.
“Fuck, fuck, by the three! Oh you’re so gorgeous, fuck you make me, oh fuck”
As he comes down from his second orgasm of the night, Serana grabs a cloth from the end table and cleans up. He whines a bit at her cleaning him up, more of a reaction from being overstimulated.  After they are both clean, Serana lays down beside him, tracing his tattoos as he hums quietly, grateful for her gentle touch. 
“That was certainly a bonus” he speaks first. 
“I couldn’t help myself, from when I first saw you without your helmet I wanted to know what it would be like to skin my teeth into you. To know what you tasted like” Serana says, staring at him, although now her hunger is quenched, only lust remaining in them. 
“Maybe next time I can taste you instead” He meets her half-lidded gaze. 
Before she can respond, they hear a knock at the door. 
“She didn’t hurt you, did she Teldryn?” The slightly panicked voice of Geldis responses. 
“He’s fine Geldis” Serana laughs. 
“More than fine” Teldryn adds. 
“Definitely more than fine” he says, this time in a whisper only loud enough for them to hear.
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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 7 months ago
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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cent-scratchnsniff · 3 months ago
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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#hod#hod lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form#lobcorp spoilers#and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic#other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her#i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally#she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en#up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression#tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on#her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees#she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health#sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work#but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager#yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the#way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does#yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what#is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and#not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing#its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good#sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where#her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling#as she is interrupting their free time in the company#which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there#but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end#EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough
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caligvlasaqvarivm · 6 months ago
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wanna ask how you feel about the eridan bpd headcanon/theory(?? not sure what to call it!) you're so good at your character analysis and i'd love to see your outlook on it
Since I don't have a degree or any formal training in psychology, I feel deeply uncomfortable diagnosing characters. I've made an autism joke before but only because I'm on the spectrum. He's definitely traumatized and anxious, but I mean those as descriptors of his behavior rather than capital-D Diagnoses. I try to focus on those when I can - the cause and effect of cognition, self-image, and behavior - and those factors may very well match up with DSM criteria, but I try not to touch an actual diagnosis with a ten foot pole unless the author has explicitly stated that X character has Y condition.
#there's a variety of reasons for this#part of it is that im GROSSLY unqualified to be handing out diagnoses when it takes a full on PhD to do that in real life#part of it is that psychology is inchoate and we are still very much in murky waters#for example: complex ptsd isn't even IN the DSM yet#and iirc my therapist told me it was because theyre still figuring out how to classify it (attachment disorder? trauma disorder? etc.)#part of it is that (from my limited and undereducated understanding) there are diagnoses that you can assign by completing a checklist...#but some that require a hell of a lot more testing and ruling out other potential causes#and the cluster-b personalities are (IIRC) not even ones you're supposed to diagnose minors with#bc of fears of self fulfilling prophecy and because minors in general are still developing personalities In General#and like the fact that i can't say that with authority speaks to how unqualified i am to do any diagnosing right? hahaha#and part of it is just because like#unless the story is specifically About That and the author has stated so explicitly#i think diagnosing characters tends to put blinders on analysis#like if i were to seriously go 'eridan is autistic' then it would massively bias my reading and understanding of his character#and we have 0 indication that eridan was ever explicitly intended to be autistic or that the author was trying to do an autism specifically#that doesn't mean that the reading is invalid because like thats what death of the author means#all readings are technically valid including stuff the author didn't necessarily intend#but that's just not the way i like to engage with media and not the way i like to approach character analysis#because PERSONALLY it just feels kind of reductive - but also -#i'd wager MOST of us don't have degrees in psychology#so when i say 'X character has Y condition' it might mean something totally different to somebody reading my analysis#even people who have Y condition aren't exempt because a lot of mental illnesses differ from person to person#whereas if i explain “X character has Y thoughts and Z behaviors” there's no ambiguity in that#eridan struggles with noticing that people are suffering and with realizing that he should care#at least part of this is due to his horrific murder-filled upbringing which rendered empathy a detriment & so he learned to ignore it#it could be autism - but it could also be trauma -#or he might just be Like That without actually meeting the diagnostic criteria for autism#& you can't even technically be diagnosed with C-PTSD#or maybe he has a burgeoning personality disorder but you aren't supposed to DX those too early anyway#or maybe hes just 13. see what i mean hahaha. ive reached the 30 tag limit
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rainbowangel110 · 4 months ago
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one fucking assignment huh.
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sleepinginmygrave · 22 days ago
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it's 2am im still not even close to be done yet 🙂
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ariiiloves · 2 years ago
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My life is definitely falling apart a month early. It was supposed to happen after the semester ends, not WHILE is ending
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daisywords · 2 years ago
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imagine actually making measurable progress on your wips...finishing them even...works that are no longer 'in progress'
#guys I can't write#like I can write when I do it it's good actually I just can't do it that often#on the one hand...the ''forcing myself to produce'' energy is getting all used up by#*checks notes* literally everything else in my life#but even when the stars align and I do have both time and energy#I am SO SLOW#and yet I am the KING of ideas fr#but they are wasted on me because I'm never going to be able to get around to them#anyway I've finished literally ONE short story in my whole life#not counting the one that was a school assignment in sixth grade#and it's like ''oh okay maybe writing isn't for you then''#listen I am thinking about these stories every day of my life#and it's like. my favorite part of being myself#but in conclusion something is wrong with me ig#like seriously how do you guys do it how are you writing more than like 12k a year#I keep saying maybe when I'm done with school it will be different but sadly I don't think that will come to pass#and like all the advice is like ''everyone has time in their schedule you just have to prioritize writing''#as if I haven't been hanging on by my fingernails since high school#like seriously I'm inordinately busy rn but that's not even the problem#but idk what the problem IS#it's not like I'm stuck bc of a particular wip either bc I've switched and written different things#idk I need to get better habits#but it's hard to devote headspace to that when life is a treadmill set to a speed that I'll just never be fast enough for
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cozy-the-overlord · 2 years ago
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I hate everything but my writing most of all 
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svtskneecaps · 2 years ago
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i always know i’m getting stressed when my comfort fic becomes “time travel fix-it” adjacent. like honestly when i put that tag back in the ao3 include filters that should have been a red flag.
#i also know i'm getting stressed because i'm starting to do quirky shit#like naming one of my wip documents 'the inside of my head sounds like screaming'#plus i just. have the insatiable urge to DO SOMETHING but that something is none of the things i can think of to do#even the unproductive ones. even the productive ones. it's not that. i need to DO SOMETHING but my body and mind can't decide on what#i'm running out of time. i have a deadline. the deadline has always been tangible and yet somehow it never was.#i have an exact date and somehow that's still nebulous and ephemeral#i am so tired#how do i convince someone i'm hireable when sometimes i'm still trying to convince myself#like i would love to tell these people that i am a WHIZ i am a GODSEND like if i don't know how to do it point me at the documentation#like i'd love to tell them all of that but the minute i look at a job application suddenly i'm questioning everything i thought i Knew#like i'm handed a school assignment and i'm like yes. this i can do. idc. it'll be done and i'm gonna get a damn A#why is this different. like literally why would it be that different. they say 'do this thing' and then i do the fucking thing.#that's life. that's work. that's what i've been told. why am i so scared. why am i not sure i can do it.#like i CAN do it that's what we've been fucking preparing for#i have As!!! As!!!!! they emailed me about graduating with distinction!!!!#i wasn't even trying that fucking hard!!!! this is my normal tryhard!!!!!#why am i so scared a job won't want me. when they're asking for fresh faced college grads.#i'm so tired. i have a headache. i am so afraid. i just need a job. literally one.#i am so scared of the mess i am going to become once i cross that stage#i am so. terrified. i wish i could anticipate graduation like everybody else in my design project.#the future has teeth. and my only option rn is just. bite it first. but i don't think i've ever been that violent.#i'm not ready#i am so scared#not kpop#shut up vic#negativity
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malachitezmeyka · 12 days ago
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I think That Woman is genuinely trying to kill me
#you know what she said to me today?#'well. since you suck at writing essays and I'm sure you don't want to write a test. how about a creative assignment?#remember that project idea you suggested? do that. right now. sit and rewrite a chapter of War and Peace in your reimagining'#and like... first of all. bold of you to assume I remember any particular chapter well enough to rewrite it#even all separate events mashed together. because that's what happens when YOU MAKE ME READ 1200 PAGES IN THE SPAN OF THREE WEEKS#but okay. fine. I was allowed to look up references. maybe any other person could have managed something#but second of all. my only reference for the vibe I'm supposed to be going for is ONE BOOK THAT I READ TWO DAYS AGO#PLUS I HAVE ZERO KNOWLEDGE OF THE ACTUAL HISTORICAL EVENTS BECAUSE WE SKIPPED OVER IT IN CLASS#AND THIRD OF ALL. THE WORST THING. IS THAT I CAN'T JUST SIT DOWN AND WRITE#NOT WITHOUT PREPARATION. NOT WITHOUT AT LEAST A VAGUE IDEA OF WHAT I'M GOING FOR#AND NO. 'IMAGINE NATASHA ROSTOVA AS A KOMSOMOLKA' ISN'T AN IDEA. IT'S SOMETHING I COULD DRAW WITH REFERENCE PICTURES#BUT NOT WRITE. I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT KIDS DID IN THE KOMSOMOL. THE VLKSM WAS DISBANDED BEFORE MY MOM COULD BE A PART OF IT#and I know it's stupid. I know I shouldn't be upset over not being able to do something I wasn't prepared for#and it's fine!! I was allowed to take it home!! I can come up with something in the privacy of my apartment#where That Woman won't be hanging over me. judging my every move#it's fine. it's literally fine#I know it is. so why am I so damn upset??#I guess.. failing at writing has become such a huge trigger for me that even when it comes to tasks absolutely nobody–#could manage without prior preparation... I just break down if I fail#it took everything in me not to break down crying in front of her. even though I really really wanted to#because first of all I do not trust her at all and don't want to be vulnerable in front of her#and second of all. how could I possibly explain 'oh yeah failing at writing makes me extremely suicidal bc I'm fucked in the head'#'and yet I won't quit because I'm s fucking masochist who likes being miserable apparently'#and I was doing so well writing wise before this... NSND is almost 16k words long and I didn't have a fit over it once#I managed over 8000 words over the weekend translating Tomorrow was the War and actually ENJOYED doing it#I don't enjoy writing. it was.. almost thrilling. to like the process#now I don't want to do anything at all#what's the point if I can't even handle a simple school assignment?#it's not her fault I'm a fucking crybaby who can't indulge in a hobby without becoming hysterical#I should've quit writing after AIDIB like I wanted to. maybe then none of this would've happened. maybe then I wouldn't feel like such a POS
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anothermonikan · 1 month ago
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I don't think you can actually tell the difference between someone having a legimate issue or difficulty completing work vs someone 'just being lazy' that easily actually.
#Sorry sorry lots of talk about group work today and everyone's a fucking struggler who's basically doing it solo or whatever#And that topic of conversation has always made me feel Bad because I've always had trouble keeping up the pace at which most people work#It's part of the reason I tend to leave stuff so late because i get scared and then work all the time no breaks.#It always disclaim it's gonna take me about 5x longer to do work most people can probably complete in an hour#Because I get very stressed and I'm a perfectionist and my brain is weird and overthinks everything ever#I have not yet found any solution to this issue. I am convinced there isn't one except leaving it all to the last week and using the panic#To pull all nighters every other day. To get it done#But I can't fucking. Do that if out progress is logged on a repo... Thinking ahead to out next assignment#I've already had the hard talk with my friends about it and they where all very nice to me but I still feel bad a bit#And I'm glad they know it's not because I don't care I care so hard it fucks me up to the point where it gets really difficult asdfhdhd#But idk sometimes people will bring examples up of one of their teammates 'clearly just being lazy and not caring enough' and it's just#Something I can fall into doing as well. So like. I don't think it's that easy to tell actually#Like I get if it's a pattern then you kinda have to intervene because yknow it's a grade you need to get#I hope if I ever fall so bad I stop working that my friends would pop in to ask me if they could help. But people are very. Mean about it#Idk where I was going with this I just wish I was better than I am I guess. Aughhh#I should go to bed <<< feels bad as fuck because they got nothing done today#android.txt
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